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Do I wanna know?
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Artic Monkeys started it. Before that Rescue Me all week. But today do I really wanna know?
Answer is. No. I really don't want to to know.
But somehow there is messsage out there in the cloud not even sure who the propogater. Makes me think are disclosures important? Yes they are. But to whom? Who deserves one! I sincerely wish you know the truth but sadly you don't but in the process of seeing your real face makes me think this disclosure is not for you. I wish you know the truth but sadly you don't. And you will have to live with that thinking all you want and satisfy yourself. Thing is. Its all finished. Finished. Sad. But finished. Karmas whose ways. Time will tell. You should have really thought of it all. It was hard to see your real face. You gave it all away.
Answer is. No. I really don't want to to know.
But somehow there is messsage out there in the cloud not even sure who the propogater. Makes me think are disclosures important? Yes they are. But to whom? Who deserves one! I sincerely wish you know the truth but sadly you don't but in the process of seeing your real face makes me think this disclosure is not for you. I wish you know the truth but sadly you don't. And you will have to live with that thinking all you want and satisfy yourself. Thing is. Its all finished. Finished. Sad. But finished. Karmas whose ways. Time will tell. You should have really thought of it all. It was hard to see your real face. You gave it all away.
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Bits!
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Words; give them away and you lose your ground!
Be reticent and you might lose it all!!
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The Holiday
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I have found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." Oh! What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man [Looking at Jasper] for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and Valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I have been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms. - Iris.
I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade. - Iris.
He let you go. This is not a hard one to figure out. Iris, in the movies we have leading ladies and we have the best friend. You, I can tell, are a leading lady, but for some reason you are behaving like the best friend. - Arthur.
I have another scenario for you – I'm in love with you. I apologize for the blunt delivery, but as problematic as this fact may be, I'm in love... with YOU. I'm not feeling this because you're leaving, and not because it feels good to feel this way... which, by the way, it does, or did before you went off like that. I can't figure out the mathematics of this, I just know I love you. I can't believe how many times I'm saying it! And I never thought I'd feel this way again, so that's pretty phenomenal. And I realize that I come as a package deal: 3 for the price of 1. I know my package, perhaps in the light of day, isn't all that wonderful, but I finally know what I want and that, in itself, is a miracle. And what I want is YOU. - Graham.
You know Graham, I just broke up with someone and considering you just showed up and you're insanely good-looking and probably won't remember me anyway... I'm thinking we should have sex... If you want.
I'm leaving in nine days and that makes this complicated.
Sex makes everything more complicated. Even not having it, because the not having it... makes it complicated.
I need some peace and quiet... or whatever it is people go away for.
(Long Distance Relationships) Really? I can't make one work when I live in the same house with someone.
I know, I'm a tad over dressed. (Olivia: You look like my Barbie).
- Amanda.
I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade. - Iris.
He let you go. This is not a hard one to figure out. Iris, in the movies we have leading ladies and we have the best friend. You, I can tell, are a leading lady, but for some reason you are behaving like the best friend. - Arthur.
I have another scenario for you – I'm in love with you. I apologize for the blunt delivery, but as problematic as this fact may be, I'm in love... with YOU. I'm not feeling this because you're leaving, and not because it feels good to feel this way... which, by the way, it does, or did before you went off like that. I can't figure out the mathematics of this, I just know I love you. I can't believe how many times I'm saying it! And I never thought I'd feel this way again, so that's pretty phenomenal. And I realize that I come as a package deal: 3 for the price of 1. I know my package, perhaps in the light of day, isn't all that wonderful, but I finally know what I want and that, in itself, is a miracle. And what I want is YOU. - Graham.
You know Graham, I just broke up with someone and considering you just showed up and you're insanely good-looking and probably won't remember me anyway... I'm thinking we should have sex... If you want.
I'm leaving in nine days and that makes this complicated.
Sex makes everything more complicated. Even not having it, because the not having it... makes it complicated.
I need some peace and quiet... or whatever it is people go away for.
(Long Distance Relationships) Really? I can't make one work when I live in the same house with someone.
I know, I'm a tad over dressed. (Olivia: You look like my Barbie).
- Amanda.
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Patience is the companion of wisdom.
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I don't consider myself a wise person but recently some decisions I made paid out well (at least I believe they did) ... Having a great experience in Sweden and Denmark ... Getting an excellent MS degree from there and touring some exotic locations around half the Europe I finally decided to return back to my home land Pakistan for a better professional career ... And with all luck I got commissioned as an officer in Pakistan Airforce ... Am about to complete my Military training and what an experience that it self is; getting the military touch and having to wear the uniform and ranks! I never ever thought I will get this far 
I fell good .. really good !!
I fell good .. really good !!
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Love and Other Drugs
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"It's just so how happy I am; in this moment right now. How I'd like to see that face for years; and this sort of breeze coming trough the window. And it doesn't matter if I have 10,000 more moments like this or just one! They are all the same; I'm happy I have this one."
"Let's just say; In some ultimate universe there's couple that are just like us! Only she's healthy and he is; he's perfect! I don't wanna be those people! I want US, YOU, THIS!"
"I used to worry alot about who I would be when I grew up? How much money I would make? Or someday I would become some big deal! Sometimes the things you most want doesn't happen. Sometimes the things you never expect often does. You meet thousands of people and none of them really touch you. Then you meet one person and your life is changed forever."
From the movie; Love and Other Drugs. www.imdb.com/title/tt0758752/
"Let's just say; In some ultimate universe there's couple that are just like us! Only she's healthy and he is; he's perfect! I don't wanna be those people! I want US, YOU, THIS!"
"I used to worry alot about who I would be when I grew up? How much money I would make? Or someday I would become some big deal! Sometimes the things you most want doesn't happen. Sometimes the things you never expect often does. You meet thousands of people and none of them really touch you. Then you meet one person and your life is changed forever."
From the movie; Love and Other Drugs. www.imdb.com/title/tt0758752/
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